To use drugs and intentionally have a mentally defective child because, you find great daily camaraderie with someone that has a defeatist based character flaw.
It increases your sense of self worth to appropriate national funds for the care of it? You can't take care of it but other peoples money can. That is spite of humanity isn't it!
It elevates yours sense of self importance because you are taking care of someone more needy than you; and doing so with other peoples money.